Vicki Adams felt mopey, listless, and traipsed through the house with an unfamiliar lassitude, flopping around in her slippers and robe. The silk Kimono given to her by her late husband had always picked up her spirits, but today it had none of its old magic. She felt empty, a shell, a shadow of her old self.
She shuffled to the kitchen, bumbled through the makings of her morning tea, nibbled an old piece of toast sitting in the toaster, looked out at the empty birdfeeder, and sighed. It was another day like all the rest - purposeless and empty.
The oomph and zip had gone out of her step. The angry harridan of her protest days was a woman of the past. Gone were the righteousness, the fellowship, the police dogs, truncheons, and paddy wagons of her youth, and the feeling of joy and fulfillment. She had been making a difference, making her life count and now nothing.
She felt insatiably angry at Donald Trump, a man who stole the White House from its legitimate occupant, Kamala Harris, a black woman who would have governed with compassion, consideration, and wisdom. Now the usurper, the predator, the maniacal autocrat sitting where she should be sitting, was wreaking havoc, taking revenge on those righteous partisans who had opposed him, and destroying democracy.
For months after his election Vicki festooned her lawn with macabre caricatures of the new President, ghastly, ghoulish, bloody images of him feasting on the bodies of the fallen black, gay and transgender. She arranged kaffeeklatsches, teas, chat groups, and informal home seminars to discuss the state of the nation, the horror of Donald Trump, and the need for concerted action.
The ladies of Bethesda were energized by these meetings and left with a new commitment to action. The evil in the Oval Office must be removed and the country returned to compassionate, progressive rule.
'I hate him', said Amory Phipps, garden club chairwoman, longtime supporter of the Democratic party, and a very agitated woman, at Vicki's tea party. She stood up, raised her fist, but words would not come. Choking, splurting, and gasping, she was animate but silent. The ladies around the table shook their heads in commiseration. 'See what that man has done to us ' Betty said to Sue, who nodded in agreement.
When poor Amory Phipps finally had gained her composure, but was too moved to speak, sat down, other, calmer but no less passionate women took the floor and denounced the President and all he had done to destroy the very fabric of democracy.
The women all left the tea party happier and more satisfied than when they arrived, but a sour taste lingered in their mouths. They were still a bunch of old, post-menopausal women kvetching and grousing. Sound and fury meaning absolutely nothing.
Then came No Kings - and the brilliance of the idea was mesmerizing. Its core principle - that Donald Trump had imperial ambitions and was a dictator worse than Hitler or Stalin and was the embodiment of all the murderous despots that had come before - was unifying. Disaggregation into separate liberal causes - the climate, gays, blacks, immigrants, Wall Street, etc. - was unnecessary. 'No Kings' said it all with everyone united under one banner.
This brightened Vicki's whole outlook on life. This was what she had been waiting for. No more sketchy, windy protests at the gates of the White House, no more rancid letters to the Washington Post, no more lawn signs, tea parties, and neighborhood camaraderie. This was The Big One, the great protest of the Sixties redux, the one that would spark a nation and force a resignation as stunning and significant as that of LBJ or Richard Nixon.
The ladies were excited, happy, and expectant as they stepped on the school bus to take them to the National Mall for the nation's premier No Kings demonstration. On this day hundreds of No Kings protests would take place from coast to coast, but this one in the heart of the nation's capital would be the mother lode, a beacon, the centerpiece.
The atmosphere on the bus was heady and thrilling. This was what they had been waiting for, an event that would not only help to remove The Tyrant of 1700 but would revitalize their lives. This protest of thousands of likeminded women together in one place, united by purpose and passion would be epiphanic and salvational.
The ladies clucked and crowed with pride and happiness, ready to sing Ninety-Nine Bottles Of Beer On The Wall, so happy were they. They couldn't wait to get off the bus, set their feet on the grass of the Mall, look eastward to the Capitol and westward to the Washington Monument and feel the pride of protest.
'Ginny!', shouted Vicki across a clutch of women just off the Gaithersburg bus to her college friend, now a florist and veteran of the protests of the old days. 'Wow!' said Vicki as she made her way through the crowed to give her friend a hug. 'Isn't this wonderful?'
The day couldn't have been better. The spirit of camaraderie was in the air, a thousand soprano voices singing in unison, a Bach chorus, an Ode to Joy, perfectly orchestrated and choreographed. Vicki felt like a young girl again.
She hugged and kissed strangers, embraced the many women she knew, shouted like a Southern Baptist at a revival meeting, whooped and hollered like a soccer mom at her daughter's first game. It was more than a gathering. It was more than a protest. It was an epiphany and an an experience closer to what she felt at her First Communion than anything else in her life.
She remembered her First Communion clearly. All dressed in white, holding a posy of lilies of the valley, looking up at the cross above the altar and feeling the presence of Jesus Christ, she felt close to God himself as the priest put the wafer on her tongue.
Today was no different. Her feelings were celestial, beatific, and holy. She felt a spiritual presence, a soul-residing beauty, a miraculous joy. She didn't hate, she loved! She loved her sisters, she loved America, and she loved the world.
Not surprisingly the sense of joy, belonging, and spiritual purpose faded in the ensuing months. The No Kings rallies had absolutely no impact whatsoever on the President who went on waging war, herding brown men into cattle cars for deportation and incarceration in Latin gulags, castrating black men, and enriching his Wall Street cronies.
Alone, disconsolate, missing her husband, and her joints hurting, Vicki returned to her morning shuffles and crust of old toast. The letdown was unremitting. She felt emptier than ever, more despondent, hopeless, and dispirited.
She filled her watering can and carefully watered her geraniums, careful not to spill a drop. Somehow extreme care of things was what her heart required.
'Where's Vicki?', an old tea party roue asked when the next No Kings rally came around.
'Moved to Florida', said her companion.
'Where?' the woman shouted. Florida? DeSantis, 'The Free State', the heart of the new Confederacy. 'Impossible', but the rumor was true. Vicki had packed up and moved into a condo in Sarasota overlooking the Gulf. 'She must have gone dotty', the woman said, 'otherwise...otherwise....'
There she stopped, thought of palm trees, sundowners on the deck, warm breezes, and retirement. 'Otherwise, nothing'




